is a big fat nothing. I feel like I haven't progressed much as a person. I've made wonderful strides as a parent and an observant Jewish woman. I've been inching forward as a wife. As a person with dreams I'm at a stand still.
Much of it is due to the simple fact that the day is only 24 hours long. Even with an ever-decreasing amount of sleep I still don't have the time to do what I need to much less what I want to. Add in that nasty martyr syndrome many of us have and something as simple as thirty minutes just to play isn't in the cards.
As much as I enjoyed participating in Mondo Beyondo, I've taken it twice and did the Dream Lab once. I feel I can't justify another round. Yet I need something. Perhaps the answer lies in reverting back to my early mornings? I used to sleep from 10:30 pm to 5:00 am. The girls would sleep until 7:00 am and I'd have two hours to myself. They weren't necessarily the most productive hours since I had to be quiet, but it was better than nothing.
Or was it? Is there a way to find some precious time for my own personal growth among the daily chaos? What do I need to succeed and how can my family support that need? Something to think about over Shabbat.