A Check-In On My Mondo Beyondo List
Miriamis a big fat nothing. I feel like I haven't progressed much as a person. I've made wonderful strides as a parent and an observant Jewish woman. I've been inching forward as a wife. As a person with dreams I'm at a stand still.
Much of it is due to the simple fact that the day is only 24 hours long. Even with an ever-decreasing amount of sleep I still don't have the time to do what I need to much less what I want to. Add in that nasty martyr syndrome many of us have and something as simple as thirty minutes just to play isn't in the cards.
As much as I enjoyed participating in Mondo Beyondo, I've taken it twice and did the Dream Lab once. I feel I can't justify another round. Yet I need something. Perhaps the answer lies in reverting back to my early mornings? I used to sleep from 10:30 pm to 5:00 am. The girls would sleep until 7:00 am and I'd have two hours to myself. They weren't necessarily the most productive hours since I had to be quiet, but it was better than nothing.
Or was it? Is there a way to find some precious time for my own personal growth among the daily chaos? What do I need to succeed and how can my family support that need? Something to think about over Shabbat.
Any ideas?
Reader Comments (1)
i have things i work on outside of mothering and wife-ing, for example my running and my writing. but i grow the most as a person and have the most personal progress through parenting and being a wife. over the years of my marriage and motherhood, i have become so much more patient, so much more sympathetic to others, so much more open minded, so much more knowledgeable about illness and treatments, and so much more considerate and understanding. through parenting, i have learned the meaning of true joy; and no longer do i fear frivolous losses because i understand what true loss would really mean. although i have been successful in my "other areas" it is only through parenting and marriage that i learned to put life in prospective and appreciate the good and accept my challenges.
and that is in addition to the added benefit of having wonderful kids to show for all my hard work! i cannot imagine that there is a more impressive final product than that for any project!
It is sad that society expects women to find meaning outside their most rewarding role of all. I chose not to accept their ideas of what success means. And those are my ideas. since you asked :)